YASUNORI MITSUDA and NOBUO UEMATSU.

You are the Gods of Game Music. Enough said. Final Fantasy series, Chrono series and Xenogears would lack that very soul that touched us without you guys.

I LOVE YOU!

/random fangirl geek

I've looked at Final Fantasy X ending countless time and still cried over it, I'm weird like that. I blame the music and the fact that I followed the Original Japanese version closely. I just looked at the 'Normal' ending of Final Fantasy X-2 again, and I compared them to the English version.

I just don't understand why do the translators feel the need to change what Yuna said to Tidus at the end of the game. The original was the most touching thing she could say to him, and it's definitely not "I love you." In both FFX and X-2, she said THANK YOU to him.

"I love you" kind of take away the tragedy part of their stories from me (in my opinion). "Thank you" can have so much more, a deeper meaning, so much feelings contained within.

Arrrrrgghhh, stop changing dialogues of the emotional parts please.

I'm going to go through Final Fantasy XII tonight and hopefully revise the story and then I may be able to write something for that series.

LAWL.

Are we a little too obsessed with Auron here? *looks at muggy_mountain*

I'm a person who is obsessed with creating. It's the only way for me to express my thoughts and feelings to the world. My state of mind often have huge impact on my end results. At the moment, I don't really know what kind of state I am in, maybe somewhat of a chaos or whatever.

Very often, when people commented on my works, be it photography, art or stories, I was told that I have a vivid imagination and a lot of creativity. I recycled old themes over and over but kept adding twist to them. I turned a simple shoot into something poetic, sultry, sexy, sad, happy, whatever. The feelings I had during the shoot may changed when I looked at the end results. As the pictures might conveyed a different feel or message to me when I had the time to sit down and spend time with them alone.

Other than having a vivid imagination, I create from inspirations. This is especially true for my stories. All my fanfictions were written based on inspirations from songs, movies, drama and my own experience. And below is one of them, that inspired my recently posted fic Sanctuary.



I understand it's in Mandarin and most of my readers cannot understand what the lyrics were saying, but watching the MV alone I believe, is enough to tell the story.

I've been wanting to write this scene since five years ago. However, no matter how much I tried, I just couldn't get the words to cooperate with each other to form something as serene as the song. It was so frustrating at that time. Then I started to step into another realm of creation and had been away from fandom since. Now I returned, and I attempted this again as a warm-up for my multi-chapter series.

I spent hours in front of my laptop, keyboard smashing all the way. Write, delete, write again, delete, think think think, write and delete again. This processed went on for a couple of hours before I finally punched in the last line for that fic. I have to admit I was kind of stuck when I got to the middle, and suddenly I couldn't finish the story. I read and re-read the story over again, playing that song and just followed what my mind told me and I got it.

Long-winded whenever I'm talking to myself, but feels good to let it out, and basically another cheap excuse to do more keyboard smashing. Hah.

I've been spending the whole week indulging in fandom again. It's a huge distraction from my work, but I guess it's good for me now, so I don't fall back into that hellhole of depression and self-loathing. I've beaten myself down enough over the years.

I've caught up with some of the fanfics that I never did in those empty periods that I was away. And I'm glad, because they made me go read up the old stories, written by others and myself and getting inspired again.

Hopefully I'd be able to do some organization and probably, well, throw out a few old fics and just archive the ones that I really like on another site. Like dreamwidth (http://saharasnow.dreamwidth.org) :D

My camera has been protesting to me by refusing to work properly, so I guess I'm kind of forced to take a break from all the shooting while I get it fixed.

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There’s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don’t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

I have a new blog now, focusing more on photography. Please support it ♥

http://www.white-wind.net

And no, my LJ is still going to be alive. So please don't be in a hurry to delete me off your list. Just that photography wise, I will mostly update on my new blog.

It's so cute I need to paste it everywhere. Thank you so much to paako, my children are awesome.

Happy Chinese New Year!

AND FUCK VALENTINE'S DAY! LOVING/STICKY COUPLES GET THE FUCK OF MY SIGHT (except the handful of kaa-san approved ones of course).